thoughts on a tuesday night
so i am sitting here on our couch. all by my lonesome. this semester david teaches a really cool documentary course at centre on tuesday nights and teaches a grad class on thursday nights at UK. so tuesday and thursday evenings are pretty much my time to "be." (i get woo-ed by some students on thursday nights to watch grey's with them.) it's kinda weird because for the past five years, david and i have pretty much been inseparable. it's been awhile since i have been "single" and had evenings to myself. i put my time in during those days...didn't get married until 27, so i had many solo nights. very glad those days are over! so wheel of 
fortune is muted in the background. we somehow messed up programming our VCR, and it didn't tape 24 last night (yes, i know...tivo, aly. we don't have cable...not an option). i was going to watch that tonight while i am by myself, but nonetheless, i decided to use this time to jot some thoughts. i am feeling pretty happy right now. the former keyboardist/vocalist/songwriter of mylon lefevre & broken heart left a comment on my blog earlier today (thanks to our carlos connection). so i am feelin' kinda special right now. paid me a compliment that humbled me. i also received a random email today from a nun from new york complimenting me on my cards and artwork...which is interesting because i don't really have much of my work accessible on my sight, but i was very touched by her comments. a freakin' nun was scoping me out! cool. it's amazing what so few words can do to make you believe in yourself. if i had someone tell me on a daily basis (besides my husband) that i created beautiful work, there is no telling what i would crank out. and to me that is so pathetic because i shouldn't 
rely on others' compliments to feed my motivation. holy spirit inspires me but i am so guilty of allowing the enemy to squelch my gifts. i know i can draw, and i know i can write, so why in the world do i not do it consistently? i sometimes blame my environment, my resources, and that i am not stimulated by my surroundings. lame, i know. trust me, i'll find an excuse. if i were immersed in an art culture i honestly think that i would create more pieces. well, i don't live in decatur, riverside, chattanooga, or on sanibel island, so what am i going to do about it? i'll be back.
fortune is muted in the background. we somehow messed up programming our VCR, and it didn't tape 24 last night (yes, i know...tivo, aly. we don't have cable...not an option). i was going to watch that tonight while i am by myself, but nonetheless, i decided to use this time to jot some thoughts. i am feeling pretty happy right now. the former keyboardist/vocalist/songwriter of mylon lefevre & broken heart left a comment on my blog earlier today (thanks to our carlos connection). so i am feelin' kinda special right now. paid me a compliment that humbled me. i also received a random email today from a nun from new york complimenting me on my cards and artwork...which is interesting because i don't really have much of my work accessible on my sight, but i was very touched by her comments. a freakin' nun was scoping me out! cool. it's amazing what so few words can do to make you believe in yourself. if i had someone tell me on a daily basis (besides my husband) that i created beautiful work, there is no telling what i would crank out. and to me that is so pathetic because i shouldn't 
rely on others' compliments to feed my motivation. holy spirit inspires me but i am so guilty of allowing the enemy to squelch my gifts. i know i can draw, and i know i can write, so why in the world do i not do it consistently? i sometimes blame my environment, my resources, and that i am not stimulated by my surroundings. lame, i know. trust me, i'll find an excuse. if i were immersed in an art culture i honestly think that i would create more pieces. well, i don't live in decatur, riverside, chattanooga, or on sanibel island, so what am i going to do about it? i'll be back. holy crap!!! the dude on wheel of fortune just solved the bonus round puzzle "tangy flavor" for $100,000!!! i don't think i have ever seen $100,000 (before taxes) won. and he guessed the puzzle with T A _ _ _ _ L A _ _ R. it was described as a "thing." how in the world did he get that? holy mackerel. i am such a dork.
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